So I’ve signed up with OU to do a degree in physics and mathematics; study began this week. It’s a big deal for me since I always wanted to study physics but I didn’t get the grades. Now I’m kicking my own arse back into gear and I’m going to be holding myself accountable with this blog amongst other things.
I received my maths textbooks yesterday, and surprisingly I’ve actually started reading them. I do find it hard to maintain focus but since this is something I really want to do, skills I really want to be good at, I think this is going to be sustainable.
That said, I’m terrified. I’m not good at maths in the slightest, but I’ve got a tutor assigned by the university and I’ve had offers for assistance from friends who love maths, so there’s hope in this situation. Ultimately I’ve done this because I want to, and for no other reason.
So why specifically take on maths if I’m bad at it? That’s exactly why. It’s something I know I’m bad at, and the only way I’m going to get good at it is by tackling the problem head-on. It’s going to be rough but I’m going to do it, and I’m going to do it well.
As for physics? That’s the one subject that kept me fascinated consistently throughout my school years. I’m a very logical person with a high focus on the observable; physics takes all the observable facts and processes them in a way that makes sense, which fits neatly into my brain. I need the maths to make it fit even better.
I guess what I’m trying to say is even though I don’t write here often, I’m probably going to be writing less often because I’m going to be studying instead. Either that or I’ll procrastinate BY writing on here, in which case you’ll know about it. Or something.